Monday, September 29, 2008
~ 5:54:00 PM ~
ii shall blog accordingly ~ friday :
Yay ! dad came back from thailand ! he custom made key chains fer the 3 of us ! its a piece of metal ` front and back are our pictures ` one side younqer version another side qrown up version ! haa ii have nicer pictures for that actually ` just that he only have one of my qrown up photo ` that was sec 15years old ? Lols ` ; / nvm ^^ [now ii noe why people sae ii chanqe so much `]
when ii was qoinq to school in the morninq , a dam inconsiderated + kiasu lady was standinq behind me on the train platform ` she used her shoulder baq to pushhhhhhh me the moment the train comes to a stop `
PEOPLE ARE ALL COMING OUT OF THE CABIN , THATS THE MOST SQUEEZIEST ALREADY AND SHE CAN STILL PUSHHHHH ME !
ii turned back to face her and ii qave her a stare riqht into her eyes . she was embarassed .
and finally when all the commuters start to move into the cabin , her baq was in contact with my back alllllll the way into the train ` ii was pek cek already and she still liddat `
ii turned back to stare at her for the 2nd time ` and i thought to myself . should ii fall any point of time in the train , i make sure i make her my handle . i will push or grab her ` to prevent myself from fallinq` who ask her push me until some where where i cant get hold of the handle ?
ii know im mean ` but she shouldnt have done that whad ` she could have just said excuse me and i'll let her qo first ?
this incident is totally on the same line as the thread '' ungracious singaporean'' in sqclub `
saturday :
studies studies ! was struqqlinq like hell to qet my sense of emergency back ` ; /
thanks panda , ronq , bran , Nas , yi de , and those who ii left out ` ; ]
sunday :
ii dont know how to get back to that sense of emergency mood ` hais ; /
everyone is tellinq me not to qive myself stress ` just do i smoothly ` but im not stress `
ii need more stress to come to me ` ; /
ii was sooooo addicted in watchinq F1 larhs ! when ii was eatinq ii saw 2 accidents ` then ii was like shoutinq as ii eat ` keep ask my bro why this why that ` LOL `
watched a total of 45mins ii quess ? so fed up with myself ` fancy watchinq the niqht before exam ! hell ~
Monday , Today :
woke at 5.45` cos ii accidentally off snooze my alarm which ranq at 5 ; / `
aint able to read much lurhs `
science paper was okay ` ii counted those which ii really really know how to do de ` 69 fer combined science ` but after moderation sure drop ? ronq said after moderation will qo up `
well , its still an unknown fiqure `
just hope ii can stay within the ranqe of band 3 like my prelims , ii would be happy enouqh `
joke of the day : somethinq jie saw ~ ~
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went to subway @ jp with jie after science ` ohya on the way there we were talkinq about sciience paper in the bus ` then suddenly those juronq sec guys near us also start to talk about science paper `
we lauqhed like ... LOL `
okay we stood outside subway fer like 5mins ? LOL ` thinkinq of what to eat and how to order `
qoodness , both of us had never ordered before `
we shared the food and it was niice ;D `
chatted & revised then went to take mrt `
while we're waitinq fer the train to depart , ii told her , this would be how it looks like next year when we're travellinq to simei ` lols ` its qonna be an estimated 1 hour journey ` ; / far uh `
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maths paper was like hell ! hell !! no need say already `
no more hiqher nitec ` there qoes my dream for the year ` wtf ! `
bus-ed home with Jason`
on the way home ` ii saw 2 uncles one around the aqe of 60+ another one around the aqe of 70 ii think ?
both of them was havinq difficulties walkinq ` especially crossing that stretch of traffic light-less road ` so danqerous ` the younqer one could actually walk on his own and morever ii was standinq nearer to the older one so ii decided to help hiim `
when ii saw him stucked with one leq on the qrass patch , another on the road , tryinq hard to be lifted up , ii was thinking .. should ii help him ? or watch him and standby incase he falls or whad ? ii stood beside him for a few seconds and he really wasnt able to lift his leq up ` so ii qrabbed his hand `
then aqain , steppinq onto another qrass patch with his leq and another stucked aqain , this tiime ii helped without hesitatinq ` he turned to me and said thank you ` ; ] after that ii thouqht he was qoinq the other way so i turned and walked back home but wth ` when ii reached home and looked out of the window , ii was shock to see that uncle walking towards the opposite ` as in , he really walked dam slowly ` so manii feelinqs in me as ii watch him disappear `
Thursday, September 25, 2008
~ 5:47:00 PM ~
Was lookinq throuqh those smses in old phone this morninq `
and ii realised that ii still have that bitch's sms in my phone `
reason why i saved her sms last time is probably to remember what she've said and prove her wronq `
when ii saw her messages , ii felt so mad ` even more madder than last time `
cos ii cant believe such a bitch actually got my number and smsed me those lame stuffs `
i'll never forget her . never going to .
i've deleted her message . cos ii am sure i can remember what she said without the need to save it .
and it only pollutes my phone ` no wonder my phone got so mani virus ` fudge .
for those who know i am referring to , dont misunderstand . i dont give a dam because she's related to that some one .
ii hate her for all the hurt she has caused me durinq my growinq years . at that adolesence age ..
qood job ` i'll remember you for sure ` next time when ii see you riqht , i make sure your jaws drop and make sure u feel like takinq back what you've said ` all those bull shyts you've said and texted . `
i just cant imagine how much bad doinqs you've done `
do you think i've ever be afraid of what you said / texted ?
NEVER . you must be dreaminq `
ii shd have asked you to come out and talk last time .
instead of keepinq it to myself and hurtinq myself .
you like to badmouth so many untrue things right ?we shall see ` and i believe in karma ` i hope retribution seeks you
other than feelinq hatred , i should also thank you `
ii should thank you for hurtinq me in the past yea ` huh . im so blessed `
ii hope ii can see you some where ` then make sure your jaws drop ` prove you so wronq `
ii shd stop sayinq about you .
you're a pollutant
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
~ 10:34:00 PM ~
somethinq to update before ii start my revision for the day ! meet jie and bran at cheers in the morninq and walk to school toqether `before ii went out ii already did a weather forecast by smsinq people livinq near juronq west area ` and they said there are only dark clouds ` not yet raininq ` but when ii reached BL MRT , it started raininq ` whad the hell ` i'll never never forget today ! the scariest thinq im afraid that will happen on raininq day happened on the way to school !not fall down uhs ` ii quess jie and bran will also remember this ` LOL ` a secret between the 3 of us kae ! ;X F&N lesson was fun lurhs [ always has been ! ^^ ] again , after F&N , we slacked all the way till end of school ` aqain , talkinq about where to dine and hanq after exams ` SOOOO many ! qonna qo bankrupt ! >< ` must plan the spendinq wisely ;X `
recess was damned ` ii have no idea why , the wind is soooo biq lurhs ` the 3 qirls amonq us qot our hair messed up ` and accordinq to them , my hair is the messiest ` f7jie came to my house at around 4 and left at 8 `
at around 7+ , somethinq happened and it became our joke of the day ` aqain , its a secret between us ` LOL `
seriously it was dam funny ` ii hope ii can remember this all my life lurh `
2 biq joke of the day ~
let me remember all this pleasant memories , please ...
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
~ 9:59:00 PM ~
School was fine today ` except that today is the most enjoyable PE lesson ofall ` played captains ball ` funniest part was how n2's girls snatch the ball from py just couldnt stop laughinq ` the whole lot of us made dam much noise when playinq ` zzz ` childish riqht ` Mr Hon lauqhed at us occasionally too ` LOL ! That was also the LAST PE of the year , of my secondary school life already ` actually , ii pictured it to be so niice ` jie & bran said they would be cominq to school ` but one over slept and one fell sick ` nvm bahs ` ; /Fiinally , a break from the damned sore throat which lasts fer one week ! ii keep '' tmr den see doctor tmr den see doctor '' ` today , finally gan yuan see doctor `kinda regret leiis ` ;/ the lame doctor prescribed me 5 kinds of medicine ` [ am ii so sick ? ]just normal sore throat mahs ` then he asked me if ii couqhs ` then ii sae sometimes ` then he prescribed me with couqh medicine .. same qoes fer others ._. ` ii rather come back pioneer here see doctor if ii knew that clinic is liddat de ` when ii went in ` the receptionist was dam rude ` ii stood infront of her and she just carry on typing her ** stuffs , as if ii was invisible liddat `
ii nearly turn and walk out ` ii sound so petty ` but she acts as if im invisible ` dun blame me ?
the doctor wasnt a local ` from his tone when he speaks ..
5 medicine , $36 ` siian lor ` ii must save like 2 weeks to cover it leiis ! some more everyone plan to qo here and there after exams !
sudden end ` dunno wad to sae already ` 6 more days to N's -
Saturday, September 20, 2008
~ 10:45:00 PM ~
thanks fer all the concern guys ` im all fine except my throat ` still hurts ` deterioratinq somemore ` qonna qo dumb some day ` >< lets hope all the sickness will be postpone to after exam bahs ` now really isnt the tiime ` ii need the proper concentration level and focus ! anyway guys , new online FM : http://nastahein.webs.com/ support horss ! ^^
Thursday, September 18, 2008
~ 12:54:00 PM ~
never knew ii had drug allergy `
feelinq headache , sorethroat & feverish , took a chinese medicine last night `
then went to aunt house and eat steamboat `
as ii was waitinq fer all the ingredients to be ready , ii sat there happily snackinq with my cousin `
then suddenly ii felt an itchy sensation on my eye lid `
it started to swell `
initially mum and aunt they all thought something bite me ` then after some time it started to swell bigger and bigger , red-er and red-er `
then when dad came up and saw this , he started to suspect its because of the medication ii took initially `
then everyone started to ''maybe ` '' aunt said after dinner use salt water to wash and it'll be gone `
but it was getting worse so dad suggested that we should go and see doctor le `
went to west point @ taman `
the doctor too suspect its drug allergy ` he said this may be only the first reaction ` it might cause rashes and breathing difficulties `so he prescribed 3 kinds of med `
first one is inflammatory ` fer reduce of swelling `
2nd one ` medicine fer allergy `
3rd one ` asthma medicine `incase it triggers asthma `
after everything , went back to aunt's house and continue 2nd round `
the left eye started to swell too ` and everyone was like lols `
my right eye looks terrible already ` ><
so dam bloody ugly ` especially side view ` the top eye lid is like wth bulging out `
ok ii shd sthu ><
bro woke me up at 430am to check if there's any rashes or breathinq difficulties ` henq arhs thanks qoodness nothinq happen `
else ii might have to go back to hosp to pump oxygen if ii have difficulty with breathinq ><
never knew druq allergy is so serious ` dad sae henq its allergy to chinese med ` if its western den jia lat already ` ><
now the fever is gone but its the sorethroat and my eyes which bothers me ! danqqqq `
Sunday, September 14, 2008
~ 11:57:00 PM ~
._. ` suddenly dunno whad to update ! zzz ` actually , it could have almost be a disappointing night filled with siian-ness `actually a few days aqo , i've been thinking and thinking about what's going to happen tonight when we comes out ` felt so excited ` but i started feeling like... i dunno how to say .. its just like actually no one was keen on going ? nvm forget that part . reached at about 8 plus ba ` den me , les , py went down to bran's block and wait for him ` dhen LOls ` when he comes down all of us were like ` acting dam angry ` it took him ages to come down and the expression on everyone's face was dam funny lurhs ` ii will always remember that we actually walked a ''maze'' before finding a perfect spot to settle down ^^ wonderful maze indeed ` in my whole life riqht , i'd never walked this kinda maze before ! they started to take out pomelo's skin and i was like ` omg lmao wads that ` it looked dam funny ` ii dunno how to put it in words >< then all of us started to put candles ontop of the pomelo skin ` and pomelo's skin is really great man ! it doesnt turns burnt easily leiis ` despite setting big fire on it fer numerous time ` even at the end riqht , the other shell is still like ` intact? LOLS ` and when the two shell were put together right , it look like there are some food being cooked with big big fire in the pomelo ` LAWL `candles , orange skin , yam , those yan huo , grass and lantern are all being burn ontop / in it ! LOL `then as the rest are playinq with those pomelo and candles , ii went to hanq a few yan huo onto the tree and then asked them to help me light up ` it was so beautiful ! emo kor even took pictures with it ^^ and then after that ! we saw a ......... wad was that called ` a 3d image ! when all the smokes rises to the top of the tree , the street light shone through the empty spaces between leaves with the smoke . it was like ! ZZ ` omg so ... there're so many .. isit lines ? or smth ` les took pictures of it and hopefully its clear enough ` ^^ then ii hanq my lantern on the tree and started to put candles on the branches of the tree ` at last we lit it up `although it doesnt look like how ii wanted it to be , but its still nice ! ^^ after that was the big lungs aka fire extinguisher part ` so funny lurh ` les and ii mastered the skill of giving a nice blow on the pomelo fire ` the effect was awesome `but py and kor were'nt able to do that ` lols ` actually the tactic was , aim on the fire ` blow it onto the floor with all your breath ` need not really inhale in alot of air ` just blow onto the floor with all your breath will do ` Lols ` but in the end py managed to do it also lurhs ` lols ii recalled smth and im seriously laughing now ` there was this once ii blowed and the fire went off ` fire extinguisher indeed >< ` then they took the metal sticks and ''revived '' the fire ` lols ` at last went to hongkah cc's mac to buy drinks and then headed home in 3 seperate ways `
thanks les fer waitinq & takinq the same bus as me ;D` ii will remember that somethinq which happened on the bus ! ^^ ;xreached home at 1050pm ~
moral of the story : if anyone's house ever catch fire , cover your face with pomelo skin [ if you need ur face to make a living ] , give the 4 of us a call and we'll extinguish the fire in a short while !
Friday, September 12, 2008
~ 8:20:00 PM ~
16days to 29th september .. i still cant concentrate like how ii used to ` fudge ` ><
im trying my best , my very best `
hope thinqs chanqes before ii really run out of tiime `
thanks all for beinq there for me by msn , sms , face to face , calls & forum `
havinq such friends by my side ii should feel lucky xD`
ultra looking forward to Moon cake festival's lantern session this sunday !
its a nice venue , nice time , and of cos , with the niiceeee people !
especially when ii look out of my window now ` ii see people playing with candles , lanterns ` LOLSS`
it has been a long time since ii celebrated mooncake festival liddat le `
still remember when ii was young , my bro and ii would buy the $2 ticket and qo to the party at blk 176 !
goodie baggg ( contains water , candle , lantern , tidbits and etc`)
its so fun ! ii remember we always ''cook'' wax` LOL`
niice memories ` ^^
Tuesday, September 09, 2008
~ 9:04:00 PM ~
i tot i could have support from you all ` i foolishly thought so `
so i went out with my friends to study . to do wadever i can to make up for the loss `
but i din know that this is wad you think `
i din know that you would ask me this way `
the way you ask me exams are coming ? the way you said then you still dunwan work hard ` still go to friends house and study `
no one fucking know how tis broke my heart . no one ` NO FUCKING ANYONE `
i wanted to tell YOU SO MUCH ` I DIDNT WENT TO FRIEND'S HOUSE STUDY ` I DIDNT WENT OUT TO LIKE HAVE FUN `
then i held my tears . gobbled my dinner . hold on to my tears . thinking to myself .
why ? why when i start to work hard . no one cares . why why i work hard . you have no eyes to see .
why the fucking hell isit that i have no chance to prove all this ?
then you asked me . alot ppl ? ii replied you four .
then you asked , teach other ?
ii could only nod my head . nod my fucking head .
then when mum saw how little i ate . she came asking
WAH REALLY ON DIET
WHAT THE FUCK `! WHAT THE FUCK !
IM NOT ON DIET . IM NOT . ITS JUST THAT I HAVE NO APPETITE . Why the fuck am i saying all this ? would anyone care ?
the stress i get from myself by asking myself every possible minute : WHY HAVE I BURNT UP THE LAST DREG OF FUEL ?
is already very overwhelming .
seriously i swear .
i dont know when will i shout at people like crazy saying that i tried doing all i could .
i dont know when will i sit down and breakdown like no body's business .
i dont watch tv . it has been more den 2 months since i last sat down and watch any show .
and you think all this time wad was i doing ?
i expected the most understanding from you .
i tot even the whole world doesnt understand me but you could
im wrong . im so foolish . im so stupid . im so childish .
my tears has ran dry . i have no more tears to shed . i've shed out all the tears. but my heart is aching like fuck .
like fuck .
i feel like banging my head against the wall . i feel like losing my memory . i feel like forgetting every thing .
i tried everything i can ` but now it all seem so useless to me . im very tired . very very tired .
i dont know what to do . i dont know how to think positively . i dont know how to cheer up . i dont know . my mind is blank .
it hurts. so deeply . this is the 2nd time i felt so devastated .
this is the 2nd time when i felt so helpless . this is the 2nd time i cry until i dont wish any one to comfort me .
this is the 2nd time words cant express my feelings . totally .
Labels: dad, i wished if you could understand `
Monday, September 08, 2008
~ 9:51:00 PM ~
~ 7:08:00 PM ~
arqh ` just woke up ` qot the qonq qonq feelinq zz `
was ultra ultra extreamly tired and sickish just now `
decided to rest and take a break today ` and hopefully this is the last day im going to rest uhs `
rest some more ii cant imagine wad will happen to my N lvl ` ;X
went to meet her at her house downstairs after school `
then qo boonlay pasar pack our lunch `
after that the weather was freakinq hot and when we're on our way to JP in 24o ii feel so giddy and obviously followed by headache `
tmd ` then on 255 was worst . qot so '' attached '' to the seat that ii dun feel like qettinq down ` blah
had lunch and actually ii took out physics to revise but dam ` buay tahan so ii slept on the floor ` why uhs ? =.=
think i've got to try to make myself awake now else ii wont have appetite for dinner later on ` and seriously because ii sleep right after lunch , ii can feel the stuffs in my stomach still haven digest `
stupid me >< `
off to eat lemon ^^
Sunday, September 07, 2008
~ 3:44:00 PM ~
An article called :
This is what a mum will do....
" My mom only had one eye. I hated her... She was such an embarrassment.
She cooked for students & teachers to support
the family.
There was this one day during elementary school where my mom came to
Say hello to me.
I was so embarrassed.
How could she do this to me?
I ignored her, threw her a hateful look and ran out.
The next day at school one of my classmates said, "EEEE, your mom only
Has one eye!"
I wanted
to bury myself.
I also wanted my mom to just disappear.
I confronted her that day and said, " If you're only goanna make me a
Laughing stock, why don't you just die?"
My mom did not respond...
I didn't even stop to think for a second about what I had said, because
I was full of anger.
I was oblivious to her feelings.
I wanted out of that house, and have nothing to do with her.
So I studied real hard , got a chance to go abroad to study.
Then, I got married.
I bought a house of my own.
I had kids of my own.
I was happy with my life, my kids and the comforts, Then one day, my
Mother came to visit me.
She hadn't seen me in years and she didn't even meet her
Grandchildren.
When she stood by the door, my children laughed at her, and I yelled at
Her for coming over uninvited.
I screamed at her, "How dare you come to my house and scare my
Children!"
GET OUT OF HERE! NOW!!!"
And to this, my mother quietly answered, "Oh, I'm so sorry. I may have
Gotten the wrong address,"
And she disappeared out of sight.
One day, a letter regarding a school reunion came to my house.
So I lied to my wife that I was going on a business trip.
After the reunion, I went to the old shack just out of curiosity.
My neighbors said that she died.
I did not shed a single tear.
They handed me a letter that she had wanted me to have.
"My dearest son,
I think of you all the time. I'm sorry that I came to your house and
Scared your children.
I was so glad when I heard you were coming for the reunion.
But I may not be able to even get out of bed to see you.
I'm sorry that I was a constant embarrassment to you when you were
Growing up.
You see........when you were very little, you got into an accident, and
Lost your eye.
As a mother, I couldn't stand watching you
Having to grow up with one eye.
So I gave you mine.
I was so proud of my son who was seeing a whole new world for me, in my
Place, with that eye.
With all my love to you,
Your mother. "
Saturday, September 06, 2008
~ 10:13:00 PM ~
GREAT ! ALL of us on EARTH MAY die on the COMING WEDNESDAY !
recently , i've read two articles from SG club
mother earth is really retaliating
the first one says that we may die next wednesday as France starts to operate a machine that might cause a black hole to just absorb Earth `
in the 2nd article , the following nearest prediction is at 18th september 2008 , a 9.1magnitude earth quake is going to strike at china [ NOT AGAIN?! ] , simultaneously causing a tsunami of more than 30 metres to occur, resulting in the deaths of more than 1 million people `
i felt really upset for SiChuan's victim the other time ` hope this time it doesnt happens !
another major happening is
2014: A small planet that has been gradually closing in on Earth might eventually collide with Earth, and this collision, if come to pass, will affect the survival of humans as a whole.
another one
2016, April: A huge typhoon will invade China, causing massive damage. The 43rd USA president, George Walker Bush, will enter the hospital, and faces a life or death situation.
it is predicted from another source that 12 Dec 2012 is Doomsday ` however if 12 Dec 2012 is really doom day , then ii think the predictions made by Mr. Juseleeno wont be true ` who knows ? to see if he's predictions are true , we shall just wait for 18th september `
~ 5:02:00 PM ~
sooo bored !
and ii know im not supposed to feel bored instead ii should be busy revising for other subjects le `
aiyaa dunno larh `
sqclubber said ii've burnt up the last dreg of fuel !
shyts lor ` i'll try to find my source of fuel again !
wonder whats everyone doing ..
studying ? working ? playing ? slacking ?
ii believe alot clubbers just cant get their hands off the forum right =.= `
aunt is coming to sg soon ! 5 days tiime ! ii hope she's feeling better `
dad's bringing her fer a checkup ` hope nothing's wrong with her uhs !
logged into maple 2 days aqo ` ben yu said he's enlistinq PA this cominq tuesday `
hereby wish him qood luck ; ]
ahh huat said he'll be coming to singapore tomorrow !! LOOOOLLLLL
Thursday, September 04, 2008
~ 2:21:00 PM ~
ii strongly believe that everyone is cursing about the english letter writing `
so many wrote informal !
but teachers said that its formal !
whad de hell man ` initially ii thouqht of formal `
but the phrase '' Friendly and persuasive tone '' tricked me into it `
dam bloody ` some more , wads so biq shot about former student ? not like a manager lor !
aiyah dunno la ` even if my english paper can pass overall also fail ` i believe i did badly for my oral `
and paper 2 summary ` its easy i know . but ii dun think ii can score much from summary `
english gone case = n lvl good game `
Wednesday, September 03, 2008
~ 9:03:00 PM ~
im now fucking bloated . every one happy ??
no one like the fuck know wad i was doing during dinner
why the fuck do i have to gobble my food
why the fuck do i have to tear when im eating
why the fuck do i have to eat so much when i have no appetite
perhaps you are right
im the one at fault
and thank you for all your scolding . finally some tears came out
didnt i just wish my frens can scold me and make me cry ? since they cant do it then god let u do the job ?
~ 8:39:00 PM ~
seriously i dont even know what the FUCK is wrong with people on earth `
just got reprimanded by my mother `
she asked me '' when u came back , haven start to rain ar ? ''
me '' no , haven ''
she '' morning when u came back after your first paper leh ''
me '' shook my head ''
she '' then u dunno hw to remove the laundry ''
me '' how was i supposed to know ? cos u also nv remove it ''
she '' walks away ''
seriously fark !
would you just stop agitating me annot ??????
AND NOW `
i will eat ` i WILL EAT WHEN I FEEL LIKE EATING
IM FUCKING SERIOUSLY STRESSED NOW AND YET ALL YOU COULD DO WAS TO ADD ON TO THE UNHAPPINESS `
HUH ? I KNOW YOU MEANT WELL . BUT COULD THE WHOLE WORLD JUST SHUT UP ?
I NEED MY OWN SPACE `
I NEED TO COOL DOWN
I NEED TO CHILL OUT
I NEED PEACE
I NEED TO BE ALONE
CAN ANNOT ?
SO DIFFICULT BO ?
I LOST MY CONTROL ALREADY ` I DONT KNOW WHAT IS THE SMLJ EMOTION TAKING OVER ME
IM MAD ALREADY ` HAPPY ?!
Tuesday, September 02, 2008
~ 1:43:00 PM ~
N LvL Chinese downed at 12OO o2/o9/o8
it was quite easy ` ii think not much problems with paper 1 and paper 2 `
now it depends on oral [ 23/o7/o8 ] and listeninq compre ; tomorrow `
well ` its over ` its time to focus on the subsequent subjects ` rather than keep looking back at the past le bahs `
tomorrow is chinese listeninq compre and SS `
everyone knows time's running out `
gotta tonq very hard today `
infact ii was so tired this morning ` ii cant even fall asleep last niqht `
ii remember myself fallinq asleep and the next moment ii opened my eyes wide `
the feelinq was like i'd fallen asleep but then when ii opened my mind it was like `
my brain has never shut before ?
sometimes ii really feel like banqinq the wall or giving myself a tiqht slap `
EVERY TIME EVERY TIME when exam comes nearer ,
ii would slack even more `
shytish feelinq in me which ii dont know how to explain `
ii only know how to feel worried that after my N's ii will regret if ii dun study hard now `
but ii dont know how to keep the enthusiasm going `
fudge `
Monday, September 01, 2008
~ 6:28:00 PM ~
ii seriously need a place to pin down my thoughts now `
everything's inside and ii cant concentrate on my studies now =.= `
neutral bahs ` nothing too happie or bad happened arhs `
went out to JSCC to study with maq , jy , sy , bs `
as expected , most of the times we're talking ` and unable to concentrate lurhs `
stupid thinq was that study till half my riqht eye start to act cute aqain `
itchy ` burnish feelinq ` red ` and blah blahh `
but that was fun leiis ` those who're there know whad ii done lurh ` ^^
after that went to medical shop and bouqht eye drops `
cos home de eye drop really taste bitter`
ii have no idea why when ii apply the eye drop the bitter feelinq would occur in my throat `
way too irritatinq !
took 185 home after that `enjoyed the journey ` cos it was kinda lonq and peaceful ^^
when ii reached home when ii reached home ii dripped the eye drops into my right eye and it feels so ..
hot ? perhaps the water in my eyes are too alkaline and the eye drop is acidic so it feels a bit acidic and at last neutralise it ? no la ` just jokinq `
` ii recieve one sms from bryan`
it says : i guess its time for me to say good bye to u le..it is heart breaking for me..but not u as i am insignificant to ur life..i really wish u all the best.tc .
after readinq ii text hiim on msn ` ii ask him whad happen ` and he somethinq like whad he said on the sms `
you know hors ii was feeling kinda fuqup ` needless to deny ii was fuqup `
ii simply hate people who comes and go out of my life , even friends ..
and especially those guys out there .. first you all fell in love through friendship , okay .
then when you all were rejected , you all move away , taking the friendship away too .
this is fudgish ` have you all forgotten the meaning of friendship ?
if yes , why risk it ?
eh shyt la ` N lvl is cominq and ii promise myself ii wont let things affect it `
that is that . full stop . i dont know larh hor `
chattinq on msn with hahahhaa his head ` LOL `
qonna prepare fer exam `
Niqhts ` May god bless all !
