Wednesday, February 13, 2008
~ 11:57:00 PM ~
well , today is the last day of adm khoo's programme . i've got to admit i learnt really dam loads from the programme . and sadly , most of us started learninq onli after most of us teared yesterday . after all those facts that amin had said , and after droppinq tears .
yesterday ` amin talked to us about parents . that was somethinq that ii had looked forward to since the programme started ` i heard all my friends talkinq about cryinq and ii was so excited and curious ` i wanted the time to come quickly and experience it for myself what isit that will make so many people cry . and surprsingly , even before he really begins '' the session '' where by all lights are out and we're supposed to cover our face to think and imagine stuffs , i started tearinq . when amin talked about imagining an old lady standinq at the door , my mind was some where else . though i imagined , but im still thinkinq about my dad . my mum . thanks god that we're given enough time to let out our feelinqs which had been hidinq deep inside us . i cried silently . that was the most extend ii'd ever cry for silent cry . its difficult and hard to cry hard silently . there were loads of sobbinq sound . thanks all those sounds that fellow school mates / classmates made . cos when ii heard all those sounds , i told myself to stop controllinq . everyone out there is really expressinq out . and so , i cried hard and immediately after cryinq when the lights are on aqain , i lauqhed dam hard . even guys were cryinq . that was when ii knew that when it comes to this kind of thinqs , even stronq guys also cant controll . i'd never expected those reactions people gave .. [ somethinq sickeninqly paiseh was , when ii was tearinq , that person beside me actually asked me for tissue =.= ]
today , durinq the closing ceremony , alot of people cried too , includinq me . there's this girl , a friend , she layed on my shoulder and cried the moment the ceremony begins . i totally understand what she was thinkinq and feelinq . i realised that amonq me , there are really alot of people who feels this way ..her tears left me with a large dot on my shoulder . its her tears but it seems like many drops dripped on the same position . i'd never expect ii would tear today as ii thought my parents aren't here .. who knows as more and more people went up to speak out , the more and more touched i got . until this girl who lay on my shoulders went up . then i realli reali teared [ cried ? ] ii never knew that so many people hides so many truth behind them .. never expect them to speak out so touchinq words .. there were 2 guys who tried hard to controll . one realli cried and that was the first time ii'd seen him cry .. i think everyone was stunned . he's a stronq guy but just now , he cried really hard . the another one , he was really doinq his best to speak out the bottom words from his heart and at the same time makinq his friends cheer up . i know he feel hurt deep inside but he joked at the same time when he was sayinq his statement out .. i'd always believe these people who hides their sadness by beinq '' happy '' feels much more sad & hurt deep in their hard . its already very painful but still mus put on a stronq front . who could have guessed the hurt they holds in them ? another guy . amonq our common hanqouts , he's the noisiest , and we always scolds him for beinq coldblooded and stuffs . he cried uncontrolably too . his statement really sadddens and touches people .. when he said '' my mother always says im adopted ......... '' every one goes '' huh?!'' includinq me in my heart . all of us saw a different side of him and alot of people within these two days . to me , cryinq is no lonqer anythinq shameful maybe cos of what amin said . i feel that guys no lonqer needs to be actinq stronq already lurhs?
will update a more detailed entry tomorrow Labels: andrea and all`, thanks to amin, woei tanq
